Choi to the World

beautiful shell

it happens rarely

my tulips went to seed

after dispersing, this is what was left

second blooms of sorts

beautiful shells

an homage to the blooms they once were

 

I think I'll attempt to see what the seeds become.

Who do I think I am?

Can I be both mommy and artist? I am sure some might say, "of course" Still others might say, "no way!" because my son should be my focus. What has the response been historically? In theory I think I do because my art is as much a part of me as being a mother is. But, can it physically be done. As of yet I don't have a very good track record. My studio is growing cobwebs, my shop is stagnant.  I am lamenting my absence from this blog, my studio, my art. I can't get any work done. I am not regretful because I am spending time in the most delightful company.  On the other hand I am a bit sad. Part of me is dormant. I am a Pollyanna so I say dormant, because the wheels are turning a stray sleepy idea makes it into my sketchbook from time to time. I am harboring ideas in the folds of my brain. A sweet little toddler is the most wonderful time and energy suck I am just longing for some balance. I have my eye on my prize. My hubby will be finished with work for the year and will have a two months of work time to myself. I plan on working full time. Hubby is going to help me organize and make my studio functional. I have a bucket-load of projects on my docket I only hope I can get some of them accomplished, it will be so hard to be out of the company my sweet little companion for hours at a time but I need to do this for me, for him. He is my focus, a healthy driven mommy with goals and a voice must be worth something, right?

Is this wrong, should I be feel guilty? Do I have a right to have my art and my family at the same time? There is a film that was shown in town recently that unfortunately I have not gotten to see but is something I will most likely purchase, maybe have a showing for friends. Check out Who Does She Think She Is?  I am and artist and a mother and wife roles I cherish and need. I may not be doing the best job at any of these but I do have a plan to try to bring them all into harmony. To make myself somewhat accountable I will be outlining and reporting plans and accomplishments as they come. This will be a summer of my time to do as much as I can.